Tuesday, March 16, 2010

listen to me

Its been a whole seen i've updated my blog , things has been going on a lot for the past few weeks , some are weird and some of it is hurtfull and some other is shits -.-"

Here's the thing , i've been single for the past 3 months before i went on with apek , we were already like scandles in a way and then on the 20th , we were together , but the truth is , i told everyone else that i was still single cuz i know that things couldn't be so true when it comes to these kinda guys , then actually , i was rightt , let me ask you this , Do you get horny with someone else and expect that other person to be okay with it ? WHAT THE FUCK RIGHT ?

Thats just the tip of the ice , there's more . we were constanlly fighting over the stupidest things ! everyday , every hour and every minute theres always something thats going wrong , then in the end , we broke up . pffft , shocker -.- NOTTTTTT

After 2 weeks being together , everything ended . So i continued my life as normal while a few guys wanted to be in my life , but the thing is , i already have someone that i wanted to be with , on the 1st of march , we were together .

Things are going perfectly well until .... Things turned cold . Now evrything that he once said , means nothing to me .

thats the end of my storyyy ,

thanks :)

-lalarawry-

Saturday, February 27, 2010

A new love ? Maybeeee :P

It was a saturday night , and it was around 2 something in the morning ! While i was sleeping soundly and dreaming about Taylor Lutner , My bloody phone rang -___-" , I was too lazy to pick up but in the end i did . Gaaaaaaaaaaaah .

But actually it paid off in the end , I endup talking to this guy who was recently got dump by his one year plus girlfriend and he is in a total mess . I felt sorry for him and i shared things with him as to comfort him and stuff . But i can't help smiling to myself knowing that his voice really kept me awake till it was already 7 in the morning and we're still talking on the phone ! :)

After that night , We cant stop talking to each other and texting , Its like times just flies by whenever i'm talking to him and sharing things that we both love , its either in music , or foods :) I'm counting the days till i'll finally meet him one day :)

thank youu :)

-lalarawry-

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

          The one thing that i am certainn about in my life is , I could never forget about you . Its like everytime i try to forget about the things that we used to be , the more i realize that i am just making myself suffer . I am crying for hours because the pain was too harsh to endure .

       The more i think about You , the more less my problems seems , As days goes by , i wonder to myself , Do you even know that i miss you ? Do you even know that i am dying each second without you ? and always wonder if you still love me like i am loving you .

       I am sitting here hopelessly thinking "why can i love anyone else ?" , "why cant i just give my heart to anyone else ?" Only after 3 months and 2 days i realized that you still have my heart with you .

       Its crazy you know when you think about forever , when you're in love , Forever feels as tho it is very short , but when you're alone , Forever seems like a long time . 

       I close my eyes every night with tears accompanying me when i slee p , knowing that i only have your shirt , and your memories thats left for me to remember you by . The truth is , I miss you . i miss us :( 

      Hope you're reading this , i love youu baby 

- lala rawr -    

Thursday, February 11, 2010

the things about you





You were once someone that i would die for , You were someone that i would love till the end of time . But i realize that the end was just after a few months . You act as tho everythings okay , while i'm dying inside but you'er still with your ways . It hurts to know that you are already with someone else , You gave me false hope , You left me to die , you never even say goodbye ..

A month has passed and i'm still stairing at yur pictures , Wondering that if that you might still think of me every now and they like i do . I stand at the place were we used to jog everyone and then and just remember about things that we used to be . All the laughters , All the hugs . Eveything just seems to fade away .

I wanna move on , but i cant . eventho i've tried my hardest , I could never forget the things bout youuu :(
Wish you could come back to me :(

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

2010 is sexay ;)

2010 Is the most sexayest year EVER !

WHYYYYYY ?!!

1. The people are SEXAY

2. The drama's are SEXAY

3. The thangs are SEXAY

4. The arses are SEXAY

5. The words are SEXAY

6. EVERYTHING IS SEXAY


Oh yeah , incase you haven't know yet , SEXAY is the new RAWRRRRR in my dictionary of life ;)

I sexyyyy ;)

You laugh , i cry .

The thing about memories is , They always find a way to get back into our mind . Eventho that memory is the memory that you want to erase it forever , but you just can't . You keep remember things that you've been thru with someone that you still love and hoping that , that someone would realize that you wan them back in your life .

But , as soon as you puck up the guts to ask them , They already have someone to replace your place . At that moment itself , you felt like you wanna just cry for hours , tear all of that persons pictures , erase everything that can reminds you of that someone .

In the end , you would be looking thru their myspace or facebook just to know things about them , Is that person okay , Is he/she happy ? Is he/she having the time of their lifes with a person who is not you ?
then you'll be wondering to yourself  , "Why did i let him/her go :("

By then , You'll be stairing at they're pictures , wishing that it was you who is in the picture with him/her . You'll cry and cry but he/she doesnt even know about it , They are just laughing away :( while you are hidding in your room from the world , crying over someone elses happiness ..

-pffft , love ?-

-lalarawry-

Boyfriends -__-"

February is the time of year for love because of the 14th . Valentine's Day . And usuall at this very day , I'll be sitting in my room , thinking that everyone deserves to be loved , except for me :(

Every year its the same thing , I've always spending my valentine's day alone or with my family , NEVER with a love one that i could be happy in "love" with . So for this year , Guess what , I cant go out with ANYONE -___-" Pffffft , and on top of that , I dont even have a BOYFRIEND :O Damn sucks right ? Eveyone around me is either in love or already together with someone . And i am still SINGLE because i don't want to break anyone of those hearts that asked for me to be with them .

Act , the longer i am single , The longer they'll come and after me , GEEEZZ ! And everyone keeps asking me this question , Idk whyyy , "whats your ideal boyfriend ?"

Pffffffft , okay fine , If you guys really wanna know ,


- He has to be a RETARDED person , Like ME ! :)

- He has to be open with things

- He has to be really patient with the way i am :)

- He doesn't have to be handsome or cute , as long as he has a nice smile , Thats AWESOME :D 

- He has to be able to be there for me whenever i need him or i dont need him , Its not like i dont , Just not at that moment i guess . 

- He has to know whats my likes and dislikes :)

- He has to spoil me in anyway . Example : Cuddle , smiles , words , make funny faces and his sacrastic laughs :D

Last but not least ,

- He has to love me for ME , not for anything ELSE ! :)