My Angel :)

Babyy , the reason I wrote this blog is to tell you how much I appriciate having you in my life . When things are going totaly wrong , i know that i have you to be right beside me to calm me down . You showed me that eventhough I was in a total mess , You would always be there to save me no matter how hard it is . You hold my hand and you wipe my tears when I was down , You get me back up . You stick to you words when you wanna replace papa in my life , I thank you for taking care of me baby .

Baby , I'm sorry for my behavior which may displeased you at times . I swear i didn't mean to hurt you in anyway . And thank you for being beside me today when I thought that my life has ended just based on a piece of paper that tells me i've failed to make papa , mama , abang , sis and you proud . But you didn't judge me . Instead you calm me down . You hold me in your arms and wipe my tears . You look into my eyes and you told me that everything is going to be okay . I never thought that I would have a guy like you in my life baby ,

As for now , eventhough you're not infront of me , I know that you'll always be right with me cause you once said "selagi I masih bernafas , I akn tetap jage u" I will keep this promise till my last breath baby .

Oh babyy , Thank you so much for making me smile . I swear i'll never hurt you babyy . I love you so damn much babyy :) And you know thats just a lil bit of my love to you :) if each raindrops were kisses , i'll give you showers . If hugs were seas , i'll give you Oceans . And if love is a thing , I would cetainly give you my heart :)

I'm glad that it was on your shoulder's i've cried on . So now , You know that i may look tough , but baby , You and i know that its not true right ? You know me inside out . So you're the only one who can judge me . I love you Muhd . NorFaizal B. Abdul Halim <3 You're the best thing that i've been always searching for . And i'm glad that you are the one who made my fairytale come true :) I love you so damn fucking muchy muchy baby :*

According to you

A guy once told me that he can NEVER live without me in his life , He told me that i was the love of his life . He even told me that he want to spend the rest of his life with me cause he thinks that i am "the one" The ultimate super women for him , Well , This last for actually , 3 MONTHS .

Then , He dates this super hot chick who is a model and who is also , my PET SISTER ! Wowwwwwww , you really know how to make a girl pissed off don't you ? Oh oh , The best part is , He told her the same thing that he once told me :) Aww . How DISGUSTING a guy's mouth can be ( sorry baby , jangan terase :P)

After 4 months with that girl , He goes to another one. OMG , This is getting better and better . He was together with my BESTFRIEND :D Damn , was i lost of words when i found out that part and again , with his words of love and loyalty . I thought to myself , "this has got to stop and i mean NOW"

Oh oh , later that night . I took the liberty to call him infornt of my bestfriend and my pet sister :) Whyyyy you may ask , Cause he said that he want to get back with me and also my pet sister :O OMG rightttt -.- Oh oh , so then this is what happend

X : Heyyyyy baby lala , How are you ? Miss me dont you :)
Me : Oh heyyy X . I'm good :) Well , if you say so :)
X : So , why did you call ?
Me : I was actually thinking about you :) I was wondering if you are too :)
X : Omg baby girl , ofcuz i do :) I think about you all the time :)
Me : What about .... ? do you love me ?
X : Yes baby :) I've always love you :P
Me : What about your gf ?
X : My gf ? There's nothi9ng serious about me and her lah baby :) I wanna be with you :) Please :(
Me : Leave your gf first then we talk okayy :)
X : No problem :) I'll talk to you soon okay :)
Me : Oh okayy :) Take care :)

Then he called my pet sister -.-

X : Hello sayang :)
K : Oh hello babyy :) Miss me ?
X : Hell yeah i do :) Do you ?
K : You know i do right :) So , why you call me ?
X : I miss you lah :(
K : Your gf ?
X : She's not important lah sayang :) You are :)
K : So ? What do you want ?
X : YOU :D
K : leave your gf first okayy :)
X : I love you
K : As so do i :D

Then he called his GF !

X : Babyy , we got to talk -.-
H : yes baby ? Whats up ?
X : I've been thinking and i think we should .....
H : Go our separate ways because I MEAN NOTHING TO YOU ?
X : Eyh , no lah ? You mean everything to me !
K : Oh really ? WHAT ABOUT ME ?
Me : AND ME ??????????????
H : wooww . I cnt belive you
X : OMG ! WTF ARE YOU GUYS DOING THERE ??
H : Its over X . I hate you , Sorry , WE HATE YOU !
Me : HAHA , Too hot for rejection my ass !
K : byee baby boy :) I love you .. NOT

We all laughed till we couldn't laugh anymore :) HAHA . Its was fun man :D

Oh oh , If you're reading this .. FUCK YOU DUDE :D

Leason to be learn , The world isn't according to you okay -.-" GROW UP

Fcking PMR -.-"

URGH , Today clearly cant get any better man -.- . The obvious fact that i literally FAIL my PMR was one thing , And another thing is , My family was doing a job job and taking things in ... NOT IN A MILLION YEARS !
My mom was saying like "Aku tak sangka aku dapat anak yang bodoh mcm kau" Then my brother pula , "aku klu boleh tknk mengaku kau adk aku -.-" Memalukan !"

Well , here's something for you guys okayy :)

Mama , Please understand my situation . We just lost OUR DAD ! and to top things up , I cant even have a steady life ! With this family having its fucking meltdown , HOW THE FUCK CAN I FUCKING COMCENTRATE ! Do tell me what the hell do you think that i should do huh ? Oh and Abang , DUDE  ! Listen up ! Its hard being a teenager okayyy ! espeacially when you just found out that you've been living a lie for all your years of living ! Sure you are an honour student or wht ever crap but do please do , step into my world and you'll know what the fuck i am feeling right now . Thanks for all your supports but i've fail you guys . I know i did . I'm sorry :(

Papa , I know you're not here with me now , I'm sorry that i have let you down :( I'm sorry for not being able do do well on my PMR exam's . I wish you were here , You would know how i feel at that time knowing you're not there beside me and cheering me on . Mom and bro are doing a HELL of a job i'll say , I miss you papa :( I wish you were still alive , I love you .


thanks . Goodbye

-lalarawry-

i love you :)

This is Muhd. NurFaizal B. Abdul halim <3

Baby , i would like to say thanks to you for making a huge change in my life . I thank you for being you and not pretending to be someone other that you're not . You didn't try to impress me in anyway . You've just been you from the very beginning . And that to me , is very special .

12th of November is the day that you took my heart away just by smiling to me at the pool . I fell in love with you instantly . My heart was racing , My face was all red and i was without a doubt , The happiest girl ever that day . And i cant belive that i walked in the rain with you . I could never forget that moment . At that time , i feel like i was up in the clouds :)

A month has passed and our love is stil going strong :) but i'm sorry that i'm not always telling you how much you mean to me , So i'm going to take this chance to show you how much you mean to me baby :) Do read this please :)


Babyy , You know that you mean the whole world to me and there's never a second where i wont tell you that I LOVE YOU everytime that we text . Yes , I admit to you . I am crazy for you . I cant live without knowing that you are in my life . As you always say to me "hati i kat you sayang" Yes baby , I know . Your heart is always with me as so does mine . Everytime i look into your eyes , I cant never get enough of you . There's a look in your eyes that makes me want to stare into them . Baby , You are my heartbeat and you know that . Guess what i am trying to say is that , I LOVE YOU SO DAMN FUCKING MUCH AND I COULD NEVER SURVIVE A DAY WITHOUT YOU :) If you're wondering if i'm loosing my mind or not , YES baby , The answer is yes . I am loosing my mind , And its all because of YOU .

Happy 1st month anniversary :)

i love you babyyy :)

will you marry me ?

please say YES !

fairytale come true ?

For some reason teens are into drama and scandles like they see in TV shows . Like 90210 , Gossip girl , The hills and lots more . Well , They act tried to immitade things in really life . For some of you FAKERS who thinks that they can pull it off in the real world , YOOO ! Here's a fuckingly WAKE UP CALL !

You cant live a normal life like in the TV shows you MORON ! What the fuck are you thinking ? There's never a happy ending to the people who acts like a bitch and thinks that they are all that but in reality , THEY ARE NOTHING !

Dont be pretending to people that you're rich and famous when you're not ! Dont fuckingly go steele other people's boyfriend just to make the school's headline ! People dont like you IDIOT ! People hate your GUTS !

And here's another thing , STAY THE HELL AWAY FROM ME !


Pssst , Fuck you :) You know who you are Biatch :)

When the truth came out ..

I stood there in silence as he was looking into my eyes . I can feel my heart beating at that time , I swear it was beating in a different beat . I never felt this way before with a guy . Maybe its just something about him that makes my heart beats so fast . I suddenly feel as if my face is buring hot .

He looks at me and laugh . He said "Are you really shy of me ? Its kinda cute knowing that you are :)" I thought to myself "OMG , why am i blushing ? Of all time ! this is the moment -.-" Then i looked down to the ground , i am still holding my silence . He hold my hand and placed on his heart , I could feel his heartbeat . It was the same beat as mine . "You're the only girl that can make my heart beat this way , what did you do to me ?" he said . I looked into those dark brown eyes , then i said , "I didnt do anything , I'm just being a retarded girl called lala . I'm sorry if i made you feel this way" I feel like crying knowing that i made him feel this way . but the thing is , I dont know what did i do .

As the day has come to an end , He took my hand and whisper in my ear , "i love you , I've always do . From the moment i meet you . I love you" I was stuned .. It was like a knife pierce to my heart as i know that i could not be with him . Its because i have i life of my own . I have someone that cares for me as much as i do for him . The guilt surrounds me .

"Look , I'm sorry if i gave you the wrong impression , I just wanna be a friend to you , nothing else . I have a boyfriend now . And you know that . I couldn't just leave him for my fantasy to finally come true . I've waited long enough for you to notice me . Well i gues here you are now . But you're just too little to late , I'm sorry :(" I can feel my tears are about to fall , so i walked away and left him there cause there's nothing i could say anymore ....


-lalarawry-

I'm stuck between the two

I cant Understand whats goind through their mind when each time they see me , its like i am looking at an angel and a broken hearted man . As i stand there looking into their eyes , I feel like i wanna rip out my heart and throw it away so that i wont be feeling this guilty towards them . Who are they ?

The Broken Hearted man :

He is the kind of guy who says what he wants and gives up after knowing he cant get what he wants . He is the type who you want to just spend the day with , his everything that you want in a perfect boyfriend . But as they say "things are not always that beautiful as what they pictured it in words" .

The Angel :

He is the the kind of guy who always gets what he wants and keeps to his words . He is the type of guy that you wanna spend the rest of your life with , He always know what to say or what to do for you to have a smile on your face as long as you're with him , he is really a dream come true .

Its hard to look at the both of them when both of them has feelings for you . And the hardest part is , You dont want to hurt any of them cause they mean so much to you . Its like when you think that life is getting the best of you , you would always count on them to make you smile again . But you cant always have what you want .

For now , I am just keeping things strong with the angel and act as if nothings going on . Theres still stories to be told , And i etend to continue that story


-lalarawry-

sorry .

Sorry i haven't been updating my blog cuz of actually , I FORGOT MY PASSWORD ! -.-" Haha . Anyways , Things has changed a lot lately , Things are kinda getting a lil too WEIRD to me and to my life . I invite people into my life and i let go some too . Its hard to know that somethings are just meant to be free not kept .

Me and HIM , Are going great as usual , Theres ups and downs but we learned alot from each other . I love you babyy :*

And my family is really giving me a real HEADACHE ! There's always drama's and fights . Grrr ! I cant take it anymore . GRRRR

Anyways , I'll update you guys on more later :) Byee :)

-lalarawry-