The love of my life :)

The guy that always makes my laugh out loud :)

I belong to him on the 20th of september 2009 and we are still going strong . I highly thank to Azrin , Bee [k] for giving him my number if not , I would never get the chance to know this monkey and to call him mine :)

The stories behind our smiley faces is unbelivable . The things that we ave to go through to make our relaitionship work . All the crying , the screaming , the swearing . I'm sorry for what i've done baby :'(

The truth is , I was never plan to fall in love with him , It just happened . I was so eager to make him mine because in some how , He reminds me of my dad . I feel safe when i'm around him and so does my brother . Its weird how actually , He smiles just like my dad but only his teeth are still full . Gosh i miss that smile :(

Babyyy , i hope that you know that i would never leave you . No matter how hurt i am , no matter what ever the bullshits that life might give us , Remember my promises . I will always be with you . Only you can get the best of me in anyway that you do baby :) I just hope that we could be as we were before i met your friends . We were so happy then . I never want that happiness to go away .


Baby monkeyyy , I love you so much okayyyy :D No matter how annoying you might be sometimes :P

The ghost of my past .

I hate to look into the mirror and when i look into the mirror ,



I hate to see back the reflection that i see . My past is always haunting me everytime i look at myself . To see the flashbacks that i've done or my love ones talking bad about me , It made me realize that i was living a lie all this time . My bstfriend's turns to be my enemies . My friends are just pretending to be my friends , Life as i knew at that time , Fucking shit lies .

From 2003 till 2008 , I GOT CRAP FROM YOU GUYS MAN -.-"

Now , its 2009 , The year where things starts to change . I wasnt afraid to look in the mirror anymore , I can say NO to my temptations , I can say NO to all the bad things that i use to do like Drinking and Smoking with he help of my love ones , Rifdi Razmi , Nurazmina , Siti amirah , Mariah Athira , Farah Athirah Harris Hashimi and Fatah Emir :)

These people are the people that i treasure the most because they stick by my side through better or worst . I love them to bits :)

Thanks guy's :)
Iloveyou :)

-lalarawr-

I am a moron -.-

Hello people ..

This is something about this someone that fuckingly break my heart and kill my soul -.-"

I hatee you and i was suprise to know that i was MADE A FOOL OFF :'(

URGH , I hate when that kinda thing happend :(

All the songs that i gave you , all the quotes , and all the poems , Do know that i hate those shits right now .

I especially hate youuu :)

May you happy with the one you love okayyyy :D

And by the wayyyy , FUCK YOUUUU !

Omg , i'm addicted to things -.-"

Things that i realized that i'm addicted too in he past few months :

1. CHOCOLATE :D

2. Sleepinggg :)

3. Musiccc that can make my dance :)

4. Talking about stupid crapyy shitts :)

5. Eating ice cream :)

6. Thinking bout the FUTURE *it scares my sometimes*

7. My phone :) *pfffffft , thats always i think :)*

8. Writing love songs

9. Smiling in a cheekyyy wayyyy :D *kening kening*

10. Being weird than usuall :)

11. Sad songs

12, Stories about life and death .


Being a teenager is FREAKING weird dude -.-" theres this and that . I wanna be a KID ! i wanna jump around and do what ever i want without anyone gives a crap about it ! :)


-lalarawr-

this is our fav song :)

I saw him today -.-"

Today evening i went to Gerai sek 2 then i saw ..... HIM !

OHMYGOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD !

Its been a long time since i saw him . Then there he was ! :0

Sitting there doing nothing and looking at me like i am a GHOST or something -.-"

URGH , Wht the hell lah dude . Then then , i sat beside him cuz thats the only empty chair available -.- Then he start talking to me ....

A : Heyyyy youuu :) Rindu you doe :) Lame tk nampak you :D

Me : Are you fucking kidding me or something ? I texted you and called you but you said "sorry , I am busyy , i'll call you soon okayyy"

A: Opppps , i'm sorry about that :)

Me : Ohh , Now you're sorry . Pfffft , -.-"

A : Heyyy , dont be this way , You're still my fav girl ?

Me : Ohh really ? Go dieee lah youu

A : Oh really ? Maybe i will .

Me : Goooooood :) So i dont have to see your face again you maggot

A : Fineeee . byeeee .

Me : Get on stepping fag .

A : I loveeee you .

Me : pffffffffft , I dont :D

then i looked at my friend and said .

Me : I'm sorry , I cant see you with this thing around .

S : Lahhh , chill lah -.-"

Me : Sorry . I'll cll you tonight . byee

A just looked away and i just walk not looking behind ....

-lalarawr-

about this guy :o

I think that he might be my soul mate for some reason :)

Why you may ask :D

Its because ,

1 . He loves the same songs as i do :)

2 . He loves the same bands as i do :)

3. He loves the same chocolates as i do :)

4. He loves the same ice cream as i do :)

5. He has been through the ame things in a relaitionship as i do :)

6. He is so sweet as i do :) *HAHAHAHA

7. He loves to sings like no bodies bussiness as i do :)

8. He loves my eyes as i love his :)

9. He is a spoil brat as i am :)

10. He has a rocking bodyyyyyyy :D *lalallalalla*


- Lets just say that i am falling in love- HAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHA

falling in love with the wrong person -.-"

Okayyy okayyy , lots of things happened actually on the 29th of October :)

here's one of it .

There's this one guy that i've been eying on for sometime since i enter the wet park of sunway lagoon :) I cant forget those eyes of him that somehow makes me go crazyyyy :D

I was determine to get him :) To me , I was on a mission :D HAHAH *mission imposible lah konon* HAHA . The funny thing is i thought that ....

At the congo slide :D

Me : Omg , hotttttt doe :)
min : I know right :)
Mira : Comeyl gila :D
Me : I want him :) HAHAHA
Min and mira : Remember ***** ! HAHA .
Me : Whose ***** again ? HAHAHA . I'm sorry :)

Then we all went for the slide :D WEEEEEEEEE

After the slide , We went to another slide :) There min tried to cut the line or so he thought -.-"

min was going thro the chains the he said : No no no , cannot go thro there :o

min's face was red then ever :D HAHAHAH . *padan muke min*

anyways ,

after all the other rides and stuff , I decided to go to the top ride with Harris :)

Then i saw that guy again :D

i said to harris :

Me : Waahhh , cepat gila dia teleport doe -.-"
Harris : Apelah you niyh , Ingat sorang tuuu -.-"
Me : HAHA , Chill lah :D
Harris : Well , He just laugh -.-"

Then after we went for thw congo slide again , I took the advantage to go to him :D HAHAHAH

Me : I want to go on the ride that his in :)
Harris : Pglah amik pelampung sane -.-
Me : HAHA , Okayyyyyyy :D

At the slide :)

Him : Asl ? sejuk ke ?
Me : Verrryyyyy .....
Him : Alaaa cian , Nak pluk tapi malu :)
Me : Awwwwwwww ......

Then weeeeeeeeeeee :) Offf the slide i go down :)

HAHAHA , After that me and harris went partying with the others at the beach :)

Next storyyyy :) After Chaging my clothes , I saw him standing by the slide that Ms.Suffiah and they all were sitting . Damn ,was i dumb -.-" I literally danced there and he watched my every moved 0.0" HAHAH . That was embaressing -.-"

Then After eating and brupppppping :) BRUUUUUUUUUUUUUP :D I went to the poll to watch him but pretending not too so that it didnt look like i was , then Mira came along :)

Me : Wey , Couple tuu doe :)
Mira : HAHA . Jom Jom . MIN !!!!!

Min datang :)

Me : Awww sayang , I love you
Mira : I love you tooo :)
Min : I love you more sayang :)
Me : Babyyyy , I nk pegang tangan youuuu :( Awww ,
Min : HAHA . Okayyy sayang .
Me : Alaaaaa byyyyyy , asl tk pkai bju warna itam ?. Tk same lah . Tk nk sayang :(
Min gelak and so does mira :D
Me : TKpelah . I nk kart mira , You byeeee ! Weeeeek >:P
Mira and me and min laugh out loud :D HAHAHAHAAH

then we went to the back an d took some pics and eats then i asked haziq to asked for his num :) and after that he waved me goodbye and suff's :) AWWWWWWWWWWW :D

That evening at 7 :) I texted him and stuff and at 10 i think , i callled him and we talked about today then i realized that ....

I WAS FLIRTING WITH TWINS !!!!!!!!!!!!!! I THOUGHT THEY LOOK THE SAME ! URGHHHH , MALU GILAAA !!!

luckyyyyy the lil bro was taken :) But the big bro isnt :D So i got the big bro :D HAHAHHAHHAHHAA

the end :)

why are you so serious ?

Why are you taking things about us so seriously ? Things about us are still so new so we should take things SLOW ! I am a girl who wants to be pampered by my love one 0.o Not to be miss treating by someone who cames into my life and thinking that i am some kind of a child -.-"

DUDE ! Growwwww up lah , be matured -.-" You're the one who says that we should take things slow and steady but instead , You are the one taking things SERIOUS -.-" Haih ...

I hope that you know that this is YOU that i am talking about :0 Good for nothing -.-"

My happy ending's

To all the things thats happening in life , as i lost my father on 11th of july 2009 , Those are really challenges from God to see if we can handle the real life . Everybody who lives must go . Thats the promise that God has made to us all .

The things that i've learned in lofe since my dad has gone is that treasure each momments with your love one . Dont make them feel left out from your life , Cause in the end , When they're gone . There's no chance for to make things right anymore , Only left with you is memories , and pictures . I regret for not taking the advantage for being with my dad through his hard moments when he needs me the most , I wasnt there to hold his hand and tell him that everything is going to be okay cause i am too fucked up with my own world . ....

The lessons in life are freaking painfull , Thats how life is either we like it or not , eventho my father isn't here with me anymore , It teaches my family to be close to each other and be there for each other no matter whats the problem is .

My happy times are the moments when i am in my fathers arms . Now my happy times is when i see a smile on my other family members face , Its hard nowadays to see them smiling when w eat in 1 table cuz theres always going to be that empty chair where he use to sit there and talked to us .

my happiness in day time is filled with my crazy friends and family but at night , things get a bit sad knowing each day you wanted in front of the door for someone who cant come back to you . Wishing that , that someone could be in your arms again as you run through the door waiting for him to catch you . But i spend my days from 5 till 10pm at night staring at the door with tears flowing down my cheeks . Hoping that he would come back ...

I miss you papa :'( i really do

The song that i wrote for him :)

The roses are red ,
and the violets are blue ,
I've searched far and wide for someone like you ,
To look in your eyes ,
When they meet mine ,
Theres nothing that i rather do ,
Than telling you how much that i really love you ,
I closed my eyes and dreamed of you ,
holding me close while flying to the sky above .

c/o :

The birds are singing ,
The dogs are barking ,
Its a brand new day ,
Theres chapter to be written ,
I'll filled them up with stories about what we're gonna be ,
Just you and me ,
I feel like that i must have done something right ,
To have someone as special as you in my life ,
I'll promise to be by your side ,
Forever you'll be safe with me ,
I'll make you're problems go away .

Theres nothing that i rather do ,
That hold your hand and tell you that i love you ,
Hope that you would feel the same way too ,
I could give yo my world ,
I could give you my heart ,
Cause no one has ever make me feel this way ,
Theres something about you just makes my world ,
i miss a heartbeat everytime I look in your eyes .

repeat c/o

Guess this is it ,
My song that i wrote it just for you ,
Keep this in mind ,
That i'll always be loving you ,
No matter how far you may go ,
My heart still forever always belongs to you ...


-lalarawry-

My retarded friends :)

These are the monkeys that make my life meaningfull everyday :D These monkeys are my Retards :D I love them :)

Meeeet Farah Sayang :)

Meeeeeeet Dalia , Min , Mira and ME :D

Meeet Andreaaa :)

Meeet soniaaa :)

Meeeeeet amirah :)

Meeet Mira and Min :)

Meeeet Haziq , Yati , Farah , Mini , ME , Mar , Mira and Min :)

HURT THEM , HURT ME .

BACK OFF FROM MY FAMILY !

A day to remember :)

29th October 2009 :)

This is the day i that i cant never forget till the day that i close my eyes :) the day starts as all the form 3's were having a school trip to SUNWAY LAGOOON :) Along with 3 of the bestest teachers any student would wish for , Ms.sue , Pn.Norma and Ms.Suffiah :D

As we reached subang , We were startin g the day by eating at Jaafar . The mamak stall which has SHISHA :D Wahhhhhh , sangap doe :) HAHAHA . Anyways , Me , mira and min were eati ng roti canai and milo ais , then i palanned to see rifdi before we go into the lagoon .

After eating , i went straight to sunway and meet with Rifdi , Azrin , baby fara , Teyra and khai :) then comes along khalid . Then we chatted for a bit and make our way to lagoon , me , rifdi and khalid . Awww :) HAHAHA . *khalid sibuk aje -.-" JK*

Inside the lagoon , things and feelings changed for a while when i saw his eyes :) HAHA .


then then ................ The rest of the day was my lil secret :D HAHAHAH


-lalarawry-

30th Oct 2009

Today is a normal day of school . living the life after PMR . Ms yun yun asked us , (min , mar , mira and me ) to do something for the art exibition on the 7th of july :)

How creative are we rightttt ? :) HHAHAHA . We are actually just there for painting , sleep , paint paint , sleep and TALKING :D I think our days are not complete without picking on one another :D HAHA . Well , I always win obviously :D HAHAHA . *jangan marah :D*

I was on the phone with this HOT guy Around 8 something then till 9 something :D HAHA . I called him 3 times i think cause of the damn creadit keep finishing -.-" Lucky MIN was there to save the day :))) Thanks MIN !!! HAHAHAHA :D He is the most sweetest guy ever :D HAHA . I can go on forever bout him :D But i'll save it till the day that he'll be mine . I wonder when that would be -.- Anyways , We were talking about things then they all disturb me by saying ,

Min : Aww ,sayang , I love you and bla bla bla :D
Mira : HAHA . i love you toooo and bla bla bla :D

*sorry to cut things short guys*

then after that , He gave a lecture to mira and min for calling me a retard :D HAHA *Awwwww ! My hero <3* HAHAHAHAHA . Serves them right :D

After 9.45 , he is ready to go to workkk :( So i cant talk to him till 6.30 :'( Haih . What a long 6 hours and a half that would be :(

when i reached home , Things got a lil weird out -.-"

mama : kenapa adik masam aje niyh ?
me : Sorry mama , tkdek pape pun .
mama : Cite lah , malam tadi ckap gan ***** happy aje :) asl now moody ?
me : Its nothing lah mama ,
mama : eyh , asl tk pgang phone dh ? gdo gn rifdi ke ?
me : I dont know mama . I dont want to talk about it .
mama : tkpelah if mcm tuu , but just remember , there's someone out there that can love you as much as he'll ever can :)
me : Oh , okayyy mama :) thanks .

..... then she walks to the kitchen , but then she turns around and said

mama : ***** is a really nice boy and he loves you .
me : What ? Huh ? how did you know ?
mama : He called me and explain everything :)
me : shocked in silence .................

Thats my day so far :)

-lalarawry- :D